Paris

Certain cities give comfort, others can revitalize, yet another can enlighten.  Paris, she is everything to all.
Eiffel tower

Breezy, humid, as I step out of the hotel lobby in the 15th arrondissement. Arriving last night, from across seven time zones, I know the lag won’t hit me till tomorrow. Ah, but a great cure, up early with the sun and a long walk on cobbled streets. Pied-à-terre. It’ll be quiet too with the hot August scattering Parisians out of the city. Not many tourists either, nice.

Have to see the tower first.

Paris-01

North on the rue de Vaugirard, the closest metro at Vaugirard and rue de la Convention. If you’re ever there at this corner, look up to the East. The building there, sharp, like a slice of French cake that’s decorated Louis XVI on one side and bastille brick on the other.

Went down to the metro tunnel, only to buy a day-ticket, in case I go too far and get too tired to walk back. Back at street level I head north towards the tower.

Love this old city as it conveys upon me a wanderlust. I’m continuously in awe of the architecture styles changing from block to block. Round every corner, a door, archway, alley that takes my breath away. Too maybe, it’s that warm, not-so-clandestine notion of history, the saga of these boulevards. Every visit I always find a place with the oldest cobblestones to stop, reach down, and feel the worn stone. It makes tangible this unreal, city of love and light.

There, the great ironwork reaching into the heavens. I’ve been here on days you couldn’t see the grass for so many lunching on the field; but today, the Champ de Mars is nearly deserted. I pause at the monument to Peace where, not lost on me is the irony that this structure stands across from a military school.

Paris-Peace

On to Eiffel’s tower. The wait for tickets and an elevator is short and soon I’m on the second floor sipping water, munching on a sandwich and looking out over the city. Ah, the white onion domes of Sacre Coeur. I have to go there. But being too far to walk, the Metro it is. Not busy in the Metro tubes either. Somehow the city, to me, in such a depleted state, gains a kind of ‘life without life’. Indeed it lives and breathes on its own as if it’d always been here, always existing.

Montmartre, the old gypsum hill. To have been here when Van Gogh, Monet or even Dali or Picasso caroused these narrow streets. I go from shop to shop, not buying, but soaking in the atmosphere as even in August the rue de Steinkerque is abuzz. A turn of the corner and there, above, the dominating white basilica.

Sacra cour

I choose the climb over the tram, and with no pauses till the top! A good test of my old knees.

The Basilica being closed to the public, I find a space on the steps, joining the others gazing over the expansive city below. Suppose, over the years, all the tourists, or perhaps faithful, sat here finding their own understanding of calm, contentedness or like me, solitude amidst the crowd. As with my wont, woe finds me and the light changes. I look into my bag for pen and paper, my tools, my prescription to change my mood.

Turning to reach into my bag I see, a step above me and an arm’s-length away a man, stout, older, grayer than I. Red-rimmed eyes, a look of introspection and I know there is some form of grief there.

“Are you okay?” As I say this I grimace to think I first should have asked if he spoke English.

He looks over, his eyes communicate to me his mind is far off but then they find focus and in a gritty voice imparting a Franco-British tone: “Oh, yes, thank you, I am okay.”

“Okay,” I say and was about to turn away.

“Loss is the bastard of love.”

“Pardon me?”

“This city says: come, find or fall in love, wonder, see history, be a part of something greater.” He broke off as a wave of emotion brought a flush to his unshaven cheeks. His blue shirt was clean, rumbled, rolled up at the sleeves. Brown trousers, worn, again clean, but nearly threadbare. This is a man who once depended on someone. He reached into an age-old leather satchel and pulled out a crinkled, sepia picture of a young couple standing on the pont Alexandre bridge. The woman in a seventies ankle length, flower patterned dress; the man, above the waist dressed in a tux, below knee-length shorts and loafers.

“Martha, when we married in August of ‘74. She was a Parisian writer, I an insurance agent and philosopher from Kent. You’d think oil and water. But it was like finding a lost arm. When I met her, on that very spot on the Alexandre bridge, my tongue was cut and my heart grew.”

Again he’s overwhelmed. My own strings plucked, I had to look away and blink off the tears.

I flinched as he patted my back and said, “Ah, one also finding, perhaps escaping, perhaps simply wanting to be away, far off from loss?”

“Yes. Two months she’s gone now.” I focused on the city below, struggling to keep the tears at bay. “She loved Paris, we must have walked every street of the old city twice.”

“Indeed, it is a place to be with someone. You find treasures, joy, the bustle of the cafés calming, the walks not tiring, but enlivening. But therein is the dichotomy. Come here alone and a melancholy, a moonless night strikes at you and the unique light of the city fades, the colours beach, the people become distant.”

Found myself nodding. He raised his arms, hands palms up as if to say, “so, there is the truth.” We stared out at the city for a while, immersed in our own histories. I broke off first.

“Want to get a coffee?”

“I am agreeable to that.”

We both grunted to get our aging bodies off the steps, heading down into the life of the city.

Paris over

photos and words © 2015 by DC Lessoway

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